Viktor

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new livejournal.
I've had this one about a year and i guess i'm just not as angry as i used to be...

yeah you guys,
i'll get right on my Blood Brothers entry in a bit here,
don't get worried...

table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td></td><td> You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life’s pleasures as much as you can.



“Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!”



More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...

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Hedonism		65%
Existentialism		60%
Justice (Fairness)		60%
Utilitarianism		50%
Strong Egoism		40%
Kantianism		25%
Nihilism		20%
Apathy		20%
Divine Command		5%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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morale delima of the day...

should one be held accountable for how they feel in regards to another person?

my new buddy icon says "OGOD, infected corn, some call it smut!"

i guess it's a little inside.

http://www.thesneeze.com/mt-archives/cat_steve_dont_eat_it.php

go down the page a bit...

I am updating for victor because he really ought to.

Tonight Evan came over and he met my other friend whose name I sadly don't remember, but he was a cool guy, and we watched fear and loathing but then evan had to leave pretty early and that made me quite sad. Plus we had chai tea that was kind of nasty, but that was okay.

See how EASY this is, Victor?

haha, i opened it up to random page...
"Habit 5: See to talk first, then pretend to listen.
You were born with a mouth, so use it. Make sure you talk alot. Always express your side of the story first. Once you're sure everyone understands your views, then pretend by nodding and saying 'uh-hun.'Or if you really want thief oppinion, give it to them."

::flip back a page::

"Habit 2: begin with no end in mind.
Don't have a plan. avoid goals at all costs. Never think about tommarrow. Why worry about the concequences of your actions? Live for the moment. Sleep around, get wasted, and party on, for tommarrow we die."

hot damn, could it be? a "selfhelp" book with an anti dr. phil attitude. i'm so very sick of him anyway.

but i knew it was too good to last

::flip back a page::

"Seven habits of highly defective teens"

motherfucker.

the next chapter contained an inspiring story about how he and his football coach had a talk about getting serious about football agian "or the younger quaterbacks will just pass you up."
getting serious? FOOTBALL?
then he goes on to explain he had lots college offers but he chose BYU because of it's reputation of producing star football players.
the motherfucker wants me to be serious when he CHOSE HIS FUCKING COLLEGE CAUSE HE WANTED TO BE A PRO FOOTBALL PLAYER, dickhead.

i wonder if she read this at all before she gave it to me. she should have known i would never take a book that has shit like that in it seriously.

anyway i cut my hair, a little while ago, and while the pictures with sarah and michelle weren't not beautiful, i took some more that are a bit more flattering.
but now...
no.
this wouldn't be the right time at all.

would any of you be enlightened enough as to show me an AIM client for linux?
oh and tell me how to install programs on here?
this is all proving to be a little more tricky than i first gave it credit for.

i think i'm going to be sick.

http://www.purevolume.com/autodefe
this band took the name we were considering to rename NRI and they have a link to rock for life. how fucking lame...

i got a cell phone today. leave me all your numbers so i can put you on my contacts list before i leave thursday.

396-7726

give me a call in florida, espically after 9, or on the weekends, that would be awesome.

"well, i'm surprised he didn't just say ' ah MF i'm drowning!'"
-mom

i haven't really be on livejournal lately, so if something super/unsuper happened, tell me, don't expect me to to know.

the contract on your life by slowdownidiot
Username
is plotting to kill you:	the_goat_room
is going to help:	njane317
will try to stop them:	makemyttitshard
will try to warn you:	il_duce45
when they will kill you:	August 15, 2005
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evan, is it really true????

it's friends only from here on out, something i thought i'de never do, but my parents ran into it the other day. just scared me alittle, not that i've got any thing real to hide...

HoboJimBites: you know what went wrong?? us match makers. our relationships were falling apart so we wanted someone to have a good one. so we tried to fix our horrible love lives with them. we are like those parents who try to make their kid get striaght a's because they didn't.

Eviloftwolessers: you are absolutly fucking right.

i attended church last night.
my mother told me i probably should, being that my aunt was performing in the choir, and she's not getting any better...
my aunt martha has had cancer for as long as i can remember, i remember visiting her in the hospital as a small child

i got to the church at seven when it was suppose to start and sat through countless videos and speeches from famous kentucky baptist preachers. I heard how we're selfish for worrying more about weither a state is a red state or a blue state, and that we should be more concerned with weither a "white" state. Okay now, no one jumped up and say anything, but that sounded a little racist to me, but being the southern baptist kentucky convention, i wasn't surprised.

we watched a touching video about an immigrant from mexico, about how the church brainwashed him and pressured him into joining, he's name was Ernesto Zapista. i found this funny (for those of you who are a little behind of revolutionary forces in central america, the Zapistas are a group of communist revolutionary who are dead set on destroying "free trade" in the form of the WTO and NAFTA).

anyway at one point they we're going all around the room with the big cameras they had, and projecting peoples faces, from the room, praying on the wall. about the third person they showed, i noticed had on a pair of head phones and was pseudo-head banging.

then we all got up and sang songs projected on the walls, i noticed small print under the lyrics at the end of every song, i mentioned them to my mom who said "i wonder if it say, 'hi, i'm jesus, and i approved this message.'"

but wow, church, how do some of you let your parents drag you, i would have cracked long ago...

family crisis.
do either jake or ben remember that crazy lady who stayed at my house the night you both slept over?
let's recall my first conversation with her, anne, my second cousin:
i had just woke up, she had arrived at four that morning, i hadn't met her yet, never even seen a picture of her...

Anne: hey!
Me: yeah?
Anne: do you live here?
Me: yeah...
Anne: where the hell's your father!?
Me: who are you???

It was a sparkling first impression.
I found my dad asleep on my old bed and got her away from me, they had some gay ole' day of my father showing off his gallery and boat and blah blah blah...

anyway she went back to where ever she lives and kept bugging my dad about sending her some pictures of his art they had taken. My dad hardly knows what the fuck email is, so like anything else that has to do with a computer, it was my job. first off his shitty aol email account wont send files that large, so we tried from mine several times.

several days later i pick up my dad's cell phone
Anne: hey
Me: hi?
Me: this Victor
Anne: hey, where the hell are my pictures!?
Me: umm, here's my dad.

then i could just hear my fathers side of the conversation
Father: oh yeah, he's been jerkin' around
i started to walk off
Me: you could learn to send an email, or be gracious.

anyway
She wanted these pictures for the Sundance film festival, supposedly he would be entered if he got the pictures to Anne.

I was over at michelle's the other night and my father picks me up late...

Father: well, i think i'm going to be in Budapest this time next week
Me: ::laughing(at such an obvious joke)::
Father: really, Anne is going... blah blah blah
she wants him to go with her, will pay for alot of the trip, he just need a buy a plane ticket from Cincinnatti, to Laguardia, to London, then get on a train from london to Paris, to Warsaw, to Budapest. shouldn't cost more than 200 hundred she says...

total actual cost, a thousand some dollars...
i hate to sounds like a spoiled little brat, we don't actually have enough money for me to go to college...

My mother is quite furious with him, they've been sleeping in separate beds for months now, but now, it's even worse, my mother just locked father out of the house...

i haden't really talked to anyone about this yet

that woman is tearing my family apart...

so if i've seemed a little, um, unfriendly or different lately, now you know...

right now, i'm needing you more than ever.

anyone else ever not take a shower for a few days, then start to feel and smell clean(to myself at least, hannah told me my hair smelled like hair and cigerettes. cigerettes and hair? go figure) agian all the sudden?
I've found a purpose to my life.
I now know what i'm going to do forever more...
i'm going to fill out all the lyrics for the missing built to spill songs on www.letssingit.com
two down, sixteen to go...
then, i may die a happy man.

i want my ears to bleed,
it's the only way to stop the bleeding else where...

You were wrong when you said everythings gonna be alright

You were right when you said all that glitters isn't gold
You were right when you said all we are is dust in the wind
You were right when you said we're all just bricks in the wall
And when you said manic depression's a frustrated mess

You were wrong when you said everythings gonna be alright

You were right when you said you cant always get what you want
You were right when you said it's a hard rain's gonna fall
You were right when you said were still running against the wind
Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone
You were right when you said this is the end

Do you ever think about it?

http://homepage.mac.com/rfg3/Downloads/FileSharing13.html
^ click it, mother fucker!

the eternal question has been anwsered... i've asked as far back as i can remember(last year) how does built to spill play shows, because they only have three offcial members, and their song always have at least three guitars and a bass, and yes as much as drums suck, they got those too... well my question has finally been answered. i just want to know who the fuck the bald guy playing the SG is, and who's playing bass? they just kind of stuck him in a dark corner and kept the camera off him the whole time. really, he got shafted...